I had an absolute HORRIBLE day at school on Friday. And I hope nothing ever ever ever like that happens again. I had a Music lesson after break (3rd lesson) and I decided to ask my teacher if I should play my piece all loud like it says on the paper, all alter it to make it different and maybe score extra marks for changing it and making it sound different to the original. For some reason my teacher thought I wanted to practise and that lesson, and sent me to the grand piano. Now, don't get me wrong, I love grand pianos. And if anyone reading this plays piano, I'm sure you'd know that the second you play another piano, it feels different to the one you're used to? Unless that's just me. Anyway, I just waited for her to come back in the class, and she did. She came and sat next to me and said "play it then". Oh, and let me clarify one thing. My teacher has the ability to make a room stone cold when she enters, and you feel as though you're walking on eggshells, she makes people nervous. So I started playing, and I know that the timing was out. But I couldn't help it, she made me feel nervous, and she was literally breathing down my neck. I hadn't even got to the end of the page and she said "STOP, RIGHT THERE" and then took over, and played the piece perfectly. It was coming up the end of the lesson, so most people went and starting packing their things. Only my teacher thought it was necessary to give me a lecture in front of the whole class, and the  people who were outside. She started yelling at me saying things like "Is there any point whatsoever in you doing the exam in March? You'll never get that perfect in 8 weeks, you might as well give up now and start a new piece." I just stared at the floor, I knew I was going to cry. But then she shouted at me to look at her, so I did. Then more started coming into class, and that's when she said "the ONLY thing you can do when it comes to Music, is theory. I'd forget your predicted B if I was you, and just settle for a C." Then the bell rang, and she told me to go into the Music office, which meant I'd be late for my next lesson. She sat me down and started telling me that my confidence is at an "all time low". Is that really surprising though? No. Then she handed me the piece I'll be playing, on a keyboard. So now I feel stupid because everyone else is either singing, or actually playing a proper instrument. She told me to come in at lunch on that day, so I did. I went to my next lesson, I was about 10 minutes late? I didn't realise I had black all over my eyes from crying. So I knocked on the door and went to say "Sorry, I was in Music" but then that teacher said "and where have you been?" but then she noticed I was crying so sent my friend to take me to the toilets. At the end of the lesson when I came back she said she wants a word with me on Wednesday at lunch, and I don't know what about. \|: I didn't mean to cry, I did try and hold it in. But my teacher made me feel so small in front of everyone that I couldn't handle it. She made me feel and made it look like I'm not good enough. She also said to me that "I have to be hard on you because maybe then you'll understand." 

But I think everythings okay now, although she hasn't said sorry. I have parents evening tomorrow, my parents don't know what happened either. 

I hope everyone on Piczo is okay! :-DD

Speak soon,

Charlotte xxxxxxx