I had an English Literature exam last week, and a Welsh Language one on Thursday. They were the final exams too, and I don't think I've done that well in them either. D: And I reallyyyy don't like the idea of resitting them. On Thursday I went with my mum after school to try some prom dresses on. I'm still none the wiser on if I like them, if they look right, or even if I actually want to go to prom. I tried four on, the 3rd was definitely a no no. The last one was nice, but because it was in ivory, it looked more like a wedding dress than anything. But you can have it in any colour, but I don't know what colour I want. Most people are going to be in pink, purple, blue etc.. I want a different colour. ;o I'm going back there on Tuesday to decide, so I'll  probably try them on again. xD I don't know if I feel comfortable in them either, because they're tight fitted ones, and I never thought I'd go for one of those, so I keep thinking I look fat, and everyone says I don't, but idk. D: The back on the ivory on was gorgeous though! It had all buttons on it, but like a criss cross tie as well. :') 

I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I leave school. And I'm leaving in May.. :\\\| I'm torn between staying at my school for another 2 years for sixth form, or going to college. Except there's good and bad points for both. If I stay at school, I'll still be surrounded by people I dislike, and have to carry on with education in Welsh, but if I go to college I won't know anyone, and I might not be used to education in English. Although, I could probably make friends easily but. ;o I really want to be a Lawyer, but I think it's a lot of work, and could be hard. I could do a 3 year Law course at College, but it's a full time course, so I wouldn't be able to do A-Levels like I want to. Because knowing me, I wouldn't like the course and then I'd have nothing else to fall back on/do. I'd do Law at A-Level, but my mums friend who's a Barrister said that they prefer it if you don't do it at A-Level. I haven't seen many things I want to do at A-Level either a part from, Modern History, English Literature (unless I've failed the exam), Art and design (but I haven't done it as GCSE so I don't think they'd let me), Politics or Business. I can do all them in school, or in College. STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, to add to my week, my ex.. remember the whole distance relationship I did? Yeah, him. Well he inboxed me on Facebook asking to talk, so we did.. and he asked if we could "go back" to the way were, being good friends. But I honestly don't think I'm ready to, I can't just automatically switch off all the thoughts of what he did, I wish I could, but I can't. So because I said I didn't know, he started getting all "ok fine." with me, which made me feel worse. So in the end, I did it back and said "you know what, i'm going to sleep. I'm ill, tired and have an exam first thing." and he just put "okay." I honestly don't know how he expects me to forget everything with the click of a finger. He said that he misses me, and the fact that I always made him laugh etc. But, he seems totally fine without me. He has tons of other girl friends who are probably just like me, and he's probably just as close to them or even closer to them than he was with me. I just generally don't know what I'm supposed to do. He's apologised for "hurting me" and can't "say sorry enough", but despite that, I still don't think he's aware of how much he actually did hurt me, and what he did. I know I sound stupid, but I just want a big, long, meaningful apology. I guess that's just too much to ask.

One more thing, can you all please please check out my best friends blog! She doesn't have many followers, but she should because her blogs is awesome and she's beautiful! So please follow her. :-) <3

Okay, this is a longer post than what I thought, so I'll stop!
Speak soon,

Charlotte xxxxx